On Being the Goddess

So this happened to me today…

I went to the woods, to help John with his research, but more importantly to reconnect with myself, with Nature, and to revitalize my energies. I love what I do, but we all need to drink from the Fountain of Youth sometimes, and the woods is a wonderful place for that.

The previous night I had had some miserable dreams that I couldn’t shake and had left my heart feeling very sad. The woods were healing me, but slowly.

Then, as we were sitting at our table enjoying an early afternoon respite and some wine, another vehicle pulled into the area and two women emerged: a very old woman and her beyond middle-years daughter. The two women began walking and we greeted them kindly. The old woman asked her daughter, “Is that a girl?” and then abruptly turned and began walking towards us with more determination. She paused, picked something up off the ground, and continued towards us. Her daughter called after her, “What are you doing?” but her voice retreated far into the background as this old woman, with her wrinkled face and shockingly white hair walked straight to me.

She held out her hand and said to me, “Here, save this as a souvenir of your trip today,” and handed me a small stone. I was surprised and couldn’t quite make out what was happening. She asked, “Do you see it?” I looked at her inquisitively, and she explained, “It’s a heart. For you.”

My heart began to cry with such great release and gratitude. The tears reached my eyes and I struggled to hold them back. I told her thank you and asked if I could hug her. She said it wasn’t necessary but still acquiesced. Then she blessed me.

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In that moment I felt a cleansing of my heart and my spirit. I felt a washing over me and a healing from within.

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I think the woman was the Goddess, reflecting the love that I have learned to have for myself. John said he thought she was an Angel. Sofia told me she was an Enchanted Witch. My mother and a friend of hers thought it was my Future Self.

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In any form she might have taken, I realized in that moment that I, too, am a Goddess. I keep that stone in my studio, watching over me, reminding me of Who I AM.