On Opportunity

“Ability is of little account without opportunity.” — Lucille Ball

I have been feeling extra grateful for all of my opportunities and the support I get (primarily from John) to work on improving my art.

It’s December, Christmas is coming. Sofia made us a priority — for 3 weeks she’s here with us. I am so, so, so grateful. Also sad and scared — weird. But that’s because I know how big and deep the Sofia-shaped emptiness will be once she is gone again, and I am afraid of the pain. I’ll live, of course. But with suffering. Sometimes I wish she wouldn’t come home because I can’t stand the heartbreak again and again and again. But I don’t wish that too loudly or seriously because the alternative is a far worse death.

And so, I’m doubly grateful to John. We support each other, our interests, our quirky personalities, and hold each other through the pain. And when that transition is over, we help each other in our work. And I can quilt again.